Connected

Do you feel connected to the world, this your life, to the planet you are living on. I don't, I feel like I am soaring a little above everything, above myself. I am not all there, I am just watching everything taking place. When somebody speaks to me I do not feel involved, I speak, I look them in the eyes, but I do not feel involved. When others want to be my friend I do not feel like I am there friends. Everything is so abstract that I do not feel part of anything anymore. I don't know what that is, always had it, it seems. The only times I feel connected to myself, to my body is when I realised what an ugly piece of shit my body is, that I should go to the doctor's because everything seems to be wrong with it, well at least when it comes to my digestion.

And another thing, anxiety is a cage, around yourself, that prevents you from doing a lot, a lot. If you don't have it you don't know what's like and how much it effects life.