Lost in a Labyrinth

"feeling lost and lonely"

That would probably be the best to describe my first days at university. After missing the introduction day I was more lost than every in the world of studying. Standing in front of the building, smoking cigarettes to ease the nerves, not knowing the where to find your classrooms.

Every day the nerves, the smoking, the half sleeping, the fear, everything.

I am driving myself crazy, slowly but steadily, with my doubts and my fears. I know that when, not if, I feel this I will have nothing to do but kill myself because then there would be nothing left for me to live for.

So where do I hide? Behind a screen to read the pixelated thoughts of minds that twirl around in their own world of stress, fear and horniness. Some day I will no longer be lost, be scared, some day I will do what I have to do without questioning a thousand things and decide not to act because the stress has become too much.